Mo

I'm happy to know that your at least aware of whats happening around you.

I'm not going to sit here and give useless motivational advice, cause i already know those kinds of things never really help when you actually have to apply them to real life situations.

Believe it or not, almost everyone in our school hides things. No body feels comfortable saying things out loud.

You are not the lowest in your family, thats how you perceive yourself. Because to me, being able to put up with things like this puts you up on pretty high standards. You have to understand that its a lot easier for people to say bad things.

You want proof? List bad things about yourself and list good things.
Most cases, people cant list any good things, but they can go on forever listing the bad. Its just always in human nature. Its simpler that way.

Siblings will annoy the shit out of you, mock you, command you around, and sometimes make it seem like they don't really give a shit. And you cant say anything back because they are older than you. It happens, to all of us. For me, i even have a little sister who does things to me. When i was younger, my brother tried to kill me. He tried more than once, but my sister would always stop him. He didn't like the idea of no longer being the youngest. Once i hit age 5 he started bossing me around. I didnt know about the killing attempts at the time, and only figured my older brother must not be very fond of me. Then he started bossing me around to get him the smallest things, Even things he didn't need. He just wanted to see me work. When my mom, dad, and sister pulled me aside to tell me it was slavery. I smiled, and i remember that day. I knew he was using me, but i guess i was just happy that for once, he's noticing me. Showing me some kind of attention.

Its funny... I guess he figured after he couldn't get rid of me that he'd keep me. I grew older and we grew closer. I'd literally do anything for him. I would die for him. And I'm not saying this lightly. I would die for him, just he ask it.

The thing is... you have your reasons for listening to them, whether it be because you don't want to put up with them or because you don't have a choice.
As for me, I've accepted that family is all I'll have left when people drift away. So if putting up with them means i get to keep them, then they can abuse me as much as they like.

I'm sorry that your relatives don't treat you as they should. I really really understand how you feel. The only difference is, mine only ignore me once they're done criticizing me in Arabic (they think i cant understand).

Its painful, when you hear yourself called a slut and a cheap whore over and over again. Sometimes you start to believe it.

Prove it to them Mo, PROVE it to them. If they treat you like shit then give them something to be embarrassed about. Make them regret every treating you wrong by becoming superior to them. Outshine them, get better. All it takes is patience.
They'll come running to you. Talking about how your the pride of the family. And this isn't shit by the way, this is the arab system. Thats how it worked once you get older. You name, your job, all of it gains you respect. Become the Diplomat you want to. Work you ass off for it and prove to them your own worth. And give them a god dammed fucking reason to show some respect and take a little notice.


bottling things in is not healthy mo. I know this from experience, and my old Psychiatric help.

It really really really really helps to find a release. By release, i mean a way to vent emotion
(NOT suicide okay)
For example, wanna know the answer to a question every one asks me? I even think there was a time where you asked me. ^_^

"Danah? why do you draw so good?"

and i never give a direct answer ^_^

Drawing and Art are my release. I vent with my art. Thats why i draw alot, thats how i practiced.

If you cant find a release, then find someone to confide in.

I'm right here.

~Ramadam Kareem

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My most productive convo~
Me:*stab*ya know, I liketh Blud, it tastes like metal~
Frend:Yep! And metal Tastes like Awesome!
Me:Jashin likes Blud!
Frend: n' Jashin is awesome
Me:So..when we're licking metal, its like we're licking Jashin!

There are only three people on this planet I can really tell my feelings. Hassan El Shoubary except he left, Nabeel *Me and him have always been there for each other* and now you. I try to talk to you at school and stuff but I don't know how to strike up the conversation.

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I know, i miss Hassan too, he actually made me into a temporary gangster...which was...extremely awkward for me O_O... i didn't exactly fit the role...

Nabeel seems like someone to confide in. I dont know him very well, but from afar he seems loyal.

And all you have to do is tap me on the shoulder, and i'm all ears. Just say you need to ask me something about a class or something. I'll get the message ^_^

And thank you, for trusting me i mean

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My most productive convo~
Me:*stab*ya know, I liketh Blud, it tastes like metal~
Frend:Yep! And metal Tastes like Awesome!
Me:Jashin likes Blud!
Frend: n' Jashin is awesome
Me:So..when we're licking metal, its like we're licking Jashin!

Hey, I feel for you man... I've been fighting that same battle being the youngest son of two, with two younger sisters. Back when I lived with them in the states, I was always over shadowed by my older brother, and my younger sisters always had their own way of getting attention, leaving me as the so called "black sheep"... After I got my curent job and hitched off away from all of them, though, I've made myself a bright future and now it will be them that are shunned.. I still love them and all, but being left out like that is just a pain that no one deserves. Prayer is a good thing, though, because we shouldn't always be looking to just depend on our own means of showing things.
We may not have the same religion, but I am a spiritually religious person. Although, God may not always seem to be around in the way we think he his, he sill has ways of showing up...

It's through hard work and effort though that will get you along the way. You may not get the appreciation you may deserve from your family, but I'm rooting for you all the way, man. ^^

*pats on back*

I'm sure God will have a hand in there some where, too. Good luck to you and I hope you get somewhere in life. Sometimes it isn't always as hard as we make it out to be... You'll see for yourself when you get out in the "real world"... ^^


That's terrible to hear that your friend died...

You are very correct that it's good to bring those feelings out, especially with people who do care, no matter what. I don't know what trust you may have for me and vice versa, but I feel for you. I'll have a few prayers for you as well. ^^

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"God doesn't limp."~ House, House M.D.

*fast hyper voice*i'm not messing with you and i'm not the person to bring you down, i just found you on random deviant but i hope you aren't mad at me for having a sugar rush everyday and now i'm speakin***

try to think that your friends are always there for you to be your family when your down, i know how your friend and you are feeling, im also treated low and badly coz i'm the youngest.
my bigsister even told infront of my mom that i'm useless. she always tells me that i should go to hell. i think shes holding a grudge on me. but ive always been nice around her even if she treats me like a slave everyday.{ example:

sister:sssssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk kuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
sakura:*runs in from outside*yes oniichan?
sister:can you get me the remote?
sakura:but its right next to you..
sister:i don't care, just get it.}

yes, that's how awful she is.
but when i get to school, i dont care what she says because i know i'll part with her eventually.

that's why i'm never showing how awful my life anywhere else but at home so she can realize how much she tortures me.



smile!XDD

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